Ahh... :P

So long I didn't renew my blog...

Today at least I got write some... ^^

No idea to write :3

Got idea also I didn't write because...

I doesn't know how to write...

My English and my Chinese are bad =m=

Wish my English and my Chinese will be improve more

By writing blog and reading people's blog ^^

By the way...

This few days...

I dunno what had happen to me...

Just keep asking questions...

Think a lot of my future...

Even when I open computer...

I kinda don't like to open Facebook...

Dunno why...

Maybe I just don't want to disturb my friends o.o?

Dunno why I just got this feeling...

Just scare like I had disturbed them...

Keep thinking am I a burden for you all...

I don't want to be a burden...

I don't want to be hate by other people...

I want to stay with you all forever...

=3= Keep ask questions again...

Why...!!! Why...!!!

This few days so weird...!!!

Am I really really grow up...?

But I don't want to grow up!!!

I just want to be small time...!!!

I don't want to be old...!!!

Just can't accept reality...

I really really wish time froze now...

Never flies anymore...

End...

Should I be happy or...?

Today...
I think I had grown up...

I go HUKM clinic to test blood by my own...

My own~~~! Oh yeah...

When I was small...

Every time I need my parents to help me up...

But today...

I just sit alone at the waiting place...

Waiting my number to be call...

Alone...

First time for me... :3

But when my number been call =3=

She say my paper haven cop and haven pay yet...

That time I was " WHAT?!?!?!? =3=!!! "

So I need to wait again ==

The counter need 8.00a.m. then open /.\

So stupid am I...

Come so early...

Get first number...

But also need wait ==

But at last...

It open...

And it cost RM5...

=3= Lucky I bring some money...

If not I DOME...

After finish...

I walk back home alone...

Last time I always call my parents to fetch me...

But today they all busy...

So I need to walk lah~

On the way back...

I passed by 7-11...

I can't believe I refuse to buy mol point...

As usual...

When I passed by 7-11...

I sure used up all my money to buy mol point...

But today was different...

I didn't buy it o.o...

I force myself not to buy it...

Kinda think am I already changed?

Am I grown up?

Should I be happy or?

Would I change more next time?

After changed?

Nice?

I dunno...

End...

我最担心的事...

啊...

现在...

我最担心的事...

我最怕的事...

就是妳...

19 - 12 - 13 那时候...

我们一起跟妳的男朋友一起出去玩...

我发现了一件事...

我看得出妳这次很认真地去爱一个人...

晚上时妳还说妳有主动地去亲他...

那时...

我真的很担心...

好担心...

我很担心那个 damn Andrew 不是真心的...

...

我们玩 PIU 时...

他的表情好像不是很喜欢...

好像不是很喜欢去那种地方...

我不知道啦...

=3=...

我也不知道他是否喜欢那种很主动的女生...

啊...

我也许想多了...

也许这些只是个我的想象...

我也不知道...

我真的不知道...

我只是害怕...

......

妳受到伤害...

也许我有点自私的想法...

可能是想和妳永远在一起...

我不知道...

我不知道到底我在担心什么...

是怕你受到伤害...

还是很自私的我害怕失去妳...

还是我羡慕妳拥有个男朋友...

而我没有...

可是...

有了男朋友真的很好吗?...

想了很久...

我觉得不要再想太多啦...

End...

啊...

啊...

这几年来... 我为了她...

我做了很多东西...

做了我从来没去做也有可能我不知道的事...

为了要跟了解她...

我开了 blog...

我下载了 skype...

我 qiong sdo 99...

我甚至还开了 twitter...

我不知道妳在我的心中为啥那么重要...

我心中就这么的关心妳关注妳...

我认识这么多的朋友...

就是没有一个可以为她而着迷... 为她而疯狂...

想下一下...

如果有一天妳即将要离开我的身边...

可能永远都不会再见面...

我不知道会如何是好...

那时候...

应该会失去我的目的地...

会社会中 sesat =3=...

其实我也不相信 " Best Friend Forever " 这个东东...

这个想法...

是在我小学的时候...

大部分的人都是看不起我的人...

等到要写的自我介绍是...

他们全部都写 ” You Are My Best Friend... "

" Best Friend 就是你... "

这些东西都是骗人的...

可是到了中学他们一个个都不在我的学校了...

重新开始...

虽然大部分的人是马来人...

可是好比他们那些虚假的朋友好几百倍...

虽然我们同一个小学校...

可是我在中学才跟妳很熟...

我也想说声谢谢...
因为妳没有因为我是个丑女就不要我这个朋友...
谢谢你!!!

End... xDD

My boyfriend~

I wish my life just like the girl in the photo...

Even though the girl was curse to be old lady in the story...

But I still like her life ^^

Hehe ^^

She have a guy...

His name call Howl ^^

He is a half beast half man ><

But he is my type ^^ I love him so much~

He is the one who standing in the middle of the photo ^^

 And he is carrying fire call Calcifer...

I also like Calcifer ^^

He so so so cute haha!!!

It can control the whole castle too ^^

If doesn't have Calcifer the whole castle doesn't move... ^^

Those who got watch 《 Howl's Moving Castle 》

Then can know why I wish to be the girl in the story ^^... 

Life full of romantic...

Full of magic...

Full of cute cute thing...

Full of avenger ^^

But it just a story...

It can't be true...

>< I really wanted to have this type of life...

I don't want live in meaningless life...

But I live in this type life also ok la...

Just less avenger type of life...

The think we had to do is 继续活者 ^^

Don't do stupid thing ^^

End... xDDD

妳

我不懂我在妳的心中是什么值位……

可是我跟你说妳在我的心中永远都是第一……

没有人是在妳的前面……

也没有人在妳的后面……

妳如果不相识就属与你的啦……

不知道在妳的男朋友那边有听到我曾经说过

哈哈... 很好笑一下当我想起来…

如果想知道你去问一下你的男朋友 :3

我不会说的啦…… 哄哄

我现在都不懂要写什么了……

你知道我在说谁的咯……

这个题目有点难写……

就这样啦...

写完了.... xD

I'm so so so! sorry~

I am so so so sorry for you...

You invite me go hang out many time...

And I keep 放飞机...

I really really so sorry ><

I had to lie to you that my bapak don't let me go...

其实 I can't go because...

I had no money TT

I don't want let you belanja me...

I had 欠 so many people money...

I don't want to 欠 you money...

I know...

Borrow money must pay back...

If not next time hard to borrow...

I don't want to borrow money anymore not just because

I 欠 many people...

I also no money to pay you back...

Hope you didn't think too much

Think that I purposely don't want go with you...

I really cannot go TT...

I want say again

!!!SO SORRY!!!

End...

Dunno what to write now :3

This is my style...

If I got mood...

I will write a lot in one day xDD

If I bo mood...

I won't write anything at all...

...

Paiseh haha the title already say...

Dunno what to write now :3

So I writing this all is rubbish :3 hoho

...

Today I dream about...

Someone I never meet before o.o

But in the dream I macam meet her so long time...

But the girl i dream is already die before...

Then I suddenly say

" EH!!! you not already die ahh!!! "

Then the detail I forgot already...

She got say she in through the galaxy when she die that time...

Then I dunno why I say " EHH!!!

I also like that "

Why i will say that ?

I know last few day I got dream about...

I in the car accident :3

Then i die liao I go through the galaxy same as her say just now...

Then force to drink what I also dunno

Then after that I all forgot... =m=

Holly crab :3

I dream a lot of weird thingi :3

I think never ever I will know why I will dream a lot of this...

No one know also...

:3 a lot of my friend say I write de blog they don't understand...

I am so sorry LOL...

My English is very bad :3

I write what i think :3

End :3

So so thank you!!! Bapak!!!

16th November 2013~

My bapak buy for me the Samsung Galaxy S3 mini for me!!!

The dark one!!!

Hell YES!!!

I so so so so so so...

SURPRISE!!!

He first time buy for me a phone~!!!

Even though it clone... Sometime a bit of hang hang~

But I so like it!!!

=3= Cant believe he every day so :3 kedekut...

That time i stun for awhile LOL haha...

And I ask why you want to buy for me...

Then 假假 say

" You la! every day borrow mom and bro handphone...

Every scold you very bising you know or not"

That time I really want to cry...

After that I can sleep so well...

Can dream~

I think I feel stressed...

Is because I though they really doesn't care about me...

My parents give the love to me in different way...

...

When I say my bapak want to buy for me the phone to my friend...

I also got some feeling...

If that time is she say to me

her parents going to give her a phone...

I will felt a bit of sad...

I also dunno it she think like that...

She like to seal her truth feeling from me...

=m= I don't like anything of that...

o0o EH YOU!!! Double S!

I going to kill you 99 if you think that then bo tell me!!!

!!!o0o!!!

End :3

Oh my god o.o!!!

Oh my god!!!

== my uncle not dec 24th marry!!!

Is dec 14th!!!

That mean my friend and I Melaka trip and Kuala Lumpur trip will a bit of problem ==

Because they all so busy dunno can bring us jalan or not!!!

And how my father will bring us to == my new house...

Then == he say if want go play de hua...

Nov 20th++ like that go =-= I also dunno they can or not

By the way dec 13rd ice skating trip... also got problem T^T

I now dunno what to do :3

alamak T^T...

This is a disaster OH MY GOD!!!

Saw dao this post de... :3 got question can call me =3=!!!

I now dunno what to do really T^T

 

End... :3 

Huhu Wedding Dress

Huhu... Wedding dress~

xDD

I always think...

Eh... 小叔...

I think hor you vegetarian de wor...

Got girls want marry him meh... xDD

But surprising... ==

Last dunno what week...

That time i heard they say...

"Need invite people come and eat"

"No!!! Don't want"

o.o that time I blur?

They arrange some event??

For what??

Then I heard them again...

Then I say ==

What you guys angrying ==

My aunt say...

Your 小叔 want marry la...

That time I o.o ?!

Har?? I say... ==

My 小叔 want marry??

With who??

Who want marry he???

That time I stun :3 for awhile...

Aunt say the girl who come our house de lo...

Wow... xDD

I know the girl...

So surprising... :3 I though 阿夏叔叔 joking that time o.o say the girl is 小叔 girl friend... xDD

But is true xDD Oh my god?!?!?!

They are going to marry on dec 24th... :3

I want to wear the wedding dress on that day xDD I never wear the dress before...

Feel so happy... xDD

But my dad say ==

"You think too much..."

"You just layan the costumer... :3..."

=m=!!! SAD SO SAD ==

By the way my aunt say want bring me go buy new cloth...

Wandering what cloth she will buy for me ^^

I am looking forward for that day ^^...

Sure will be fun!!!

End... xDD

Love~

Love...

If you want the love...

First thing you need to do is to be brave...

Brave to face to him or her...

Brave to be with him or her...

Brave to tell your feeling about to him or her...

Not that u hiding... Waiting him or her to say I love you...

Like this... Waiting you will NEVER EVER get your truth love...

If you not brave enough... There doesn't have the sweet ending...

...

Love...

If you want to been love...

You must love your lover much more than you love him or her...

Appreciated your lover...

Be nice with your lover...

Not the one who beat hardly your lover...

...

Love...

If can't be nice or brave...

You are NOT ready for the love...

And...

You will never ever...

Have the own love...
If you choose the wrong love...

You will feel sad every day...
Single for live...

If you haven start the relationship...

Don't ever cry for him or her...

That so stupid... ==

...

For me love...

I will never get it...

Because reality all boys don't like ugly girl... Like all cute cute girl... Pretty and sexy girl... xDD

But not all la... ==

Less...

Impossible he will find me xDD
I so rajin xDD So nice... xDD haha...
So perasan ==

By the way I not as brave as I say like that to face the incoming love...

Ah ya... :3

...

Prepare for THE LOVE!!!

Love the who near you...!!!

Maybe he or she is your destiny... xDD

勇敢的爱! 就会有你想要的温暖!

LOL I feel I write this so nice leh... xDD ( So 自恋 )

End xDD

Yea xDD

Yea xDD haha...

Yesterday night can't sleep keep think xDD

Want go or not...

But yea.. xDD

 

Today I went to yee ying shop... xD

Finally got go out to surprise her...

Suppose I went there early in the morning...

But I fail to wake up :3

So... 11.00am something I wake up :3

But I got go by the way xDD

Hoping she doesn't have go out work...

I also dunno will surprise dao mah - -

Hoho... xDD

I just went there then she going to swept outside xDD

But I though all gone when she say the girl boss don't let friend in help :3

 

She say don't believe friend...

I think she got not good de thinking...

I think...

Eh please la... :3

Who want go take your shop...

By the way I so small I got the power to do that meh :3

Use ur brain~

After that... she say her boss :3 go midvally very late then back :3

 

Hoho... xDD

She can rest 99 le LOL :3

We go eat...

Go find friend xDD

Then EAT AGAIN!!!

Hiak hiak... xDD

But going to 3.00pm... I asking her to back the shop...

Scare the boss =,=

Scold de mah...

But :3 she bo care wor... :3

That time was a bit scare la ==

But I dunno later on le... I went back home ==

 

Still the same...

At house nothing to do :3

Haiz :3...

But I go enjoy today just a bit disappointed :3...

Haha xDD

 

End xDD

LOL

xDD...

一下子写将多…

xDD...

But I want say that if I write I very sad or something...

After that i slept...

All sad thing I forgot at all o.o

This is me ^^

...

I also want to say that I am not an easily forgot I know de people as well...

Not I doesn't want to talk to you...

Is just scare that u not recognise me...

Got one time...

I still remember the girl...

I say hi to her...

But she say "who you?"

That time was... Very o.o embarrassing...

So I don't the thing happen again...

I really don't like been people laugh topic...

Don't think I am a "hidung tinggi" de people...

I not that kind of people...

But I know...

I think too much xDD

So if i say anything wrong...

I now say sorry to you all... xDD

End xDD

The words that remind me so hard...

My brother always says to me when...
I cry...

"你哭就代表你就承认你是弱者…"
This words had remind so hard...
It make me think that I should not cry...!
But the tear so suddenly drop down...
I can't control it...

But I had to!
I don't want to be 弱者!
I wish today was the last time I cry...
Peace and OK! xDD

Some two xDD had teach me what the life is...
But the two are not my parents...
Is my brother and my friend Yee Ying ^^

Yee Ying....
I can't say that I know yours feeling...
That is cheat...
I dunno how yours feeling!!!
And!!!
I want to know yours feeling as well!!!
Can please tell me yours feeling when you sad...
I already told my feeling to you...
But...
I feel that I really dunno how yours feeling...
I wish to be yours listener!!!
Your also are my listener too xDD
Miao... =3=!!!

End...

:(

:(

This few days...

Watching facebook friends posting photos, status... Even they chating...

:(

All about they had played games...

Mstar... Touch... SDO... Other lifestyle game...

When I saw this...

My tear drop again...

Dunno why...?

Just feel sad...

:(

Thinking...

Why they can play...

But...

Why I can't...

Why their wifi very fast can download a lot of thing...

But not me...

Their computer can play high quality game...

But I can't...

:(

But no ones know...

How my feeling just seeing them play and I can't at all...

Chatting with my friend just now...

I say got my friend play Touch...

Then she say I just now play with her xDD

Then... The feeling...

Ah...

Speechless...

By the way...
I am going to my hometown tomorrow...
Can disappear at long as I can...
Feel happy because...
I not need to felt sad anymore in my hometown...
No need felt...
Like I not in their world...
I think they and I really a different world...

End...

My holiday... :3

=3=

I wish my holidays just like the photo...

Campfire with my parents and friends...

I confirm will be fun...

But it will never happen...

My dream is to hang out with my parents and friend...

无论可以跟他们去 campfire 我做什么都可以...

=3=

My friends post on their facebook...

About their holidays...

Got some one go...

Shopping... Playing... Eating!!! I want to eat!!! Outdoor food!!!

Huhu... But my holidays is at house sitting... wasting time so on... xDD

But a lot of my friend went to time square T^T

I want go...!!! there play pump it up!!!

But sadly... xDD I bo money huhu...

But living without money also nice what...

Food no need to self buy or cook... Just wait them buy for you ^^

Ok lo... Stop bloging... Go play maplestory!!! xDD

End~

If can :(

If can...

I wish all people doesn't busy...

I wish to be at the seaside when i alone or sad...

The wind~

Make me forget about sadness... Forget about loneliness

This few days... Can't even sleep at all...

Every night... On my bed... roll and roll...

Dunno thinking of what... Cannot go in to my dream world...

I want dream every night just like the other...!

Dream about I am a mage!!!

Have magic all around...!!!

Nothing I can't do in my dream...

Doesn't have problem in my dream...

Every morning... Wake up so early...

Also dunno for what...

My friend goes work morning...

My parents also working...

My brother also went to school...

Just me ALONE in the house do nothing...

USELESS!!!

I am indeed an useless girl...

Every morning... Do nothing in house... Alone... Waiting the time goes...

When they back...

I wanted to speak with them but...

They so busy...

In the world! Just me doesn't busy...

Wasting time!!!

Do nothing!!!

WHY!!! I AM WASTING MY TIME!!!

I wish I can do anything without do nothing in house...

End =3=

Frustration

Ah!!!

Should I go?

Should I go accompany her?

Thinking...

I scare I went their she doesn't in...

I scare she went to work...

I saw her blog saying that alone when noon...

Alone in the shop...

Lonely...

I wanna accompany her...

But...

I doesn't have the gut to go there...

Why...

Huh...?

Why I so scare?

Am I scare that she will vanish in front of me...

Why I got the feeling of this...?

It is she say she maybe will go to Johor...?

It is I think too much...

I also lonely in my house... 

Without her... 

My life was... meaningless...

她在我心中是最重要的!

重要到极点!

Don't Go!!!

Stay with me!!!

My friend~!!!

End xDD