Tears...

Tears! I hate you so much...! I don't want you keep visits me!...

You this stupid tears! Can you just get lost...! I don't want you here!

Yesterday... Was the worst worst worst day ever...

I hate that day... I hate physic! I can't understand physic at all...

Teacher gave us an exercise paper... One group 4 people... 

But one of the member had changed school... So just left 3 of us...

Then teacher random put the titles inside an paper...

Call every group member to choose the lucky title...

So many questions inside!!! All I finish except one question!

Guess what! I get the question that I dunno how to do!

Teacher want to call us to explain how to do this question!

Got 3 questions so each people one question...

Then other two I know how to explain...

Other people dunno how to explain all questions...

Then they ask me how to get this answer... So I got try explain lah...

But why I am the one who should explain that question that I dunno!!!

I helped you! But what you do to me? You left the most hard question for me...

You this son of the biatch! o0o!

Why should I take that question! Why! You tell me ah!

So then I called my friends to ask the other how to do this question...

Then my friend say answer is like this... But I don't understand why answer B?

Never mind I try to solve it as fast as I can...

Finally I think I know how to do already...

So I have no fierce at all during explaining... After I finish it...

Teacher say what are you doing? == This words shot my heart...

Then she say why you use this way to find the answer?...

Eh hello!!! Before I want to explain I got try to ask you...

But you say " Now cannot ask any question! "

Shit lah! I really really down after that...

When teacher explains and ask student how to do...

Everyone say correctly... == Before that I call my friend ask them...

No one can help me... Why...! Teacher say liao then they say out the answer.!

Why must shot me! That time I really want to run out of the class...

Go the toilet to cry out loud... Want to escape from this class...

Then the tears are going to drop down! I don't want to cry on the class

So I keep tell myself! If want cry wait after school bah! Cry enough enough!

After school I do want go cry but my friend want me to teach her add math...

So I can't cry right now... So I keep withstand my tears...

When I went back house... I can't cry already... My tears don't want come out.

== I hate you lah... When I don't want you but you keep come to me...

When I want you but you no come out! What you want wor!

o0o Suck lah you...! This is why I hate you so much!

End !

I am willing to...

I am willing to... Haiz...

I am willing to let go everything I have...

If you guys think that I am annoying, bad, worst or any else...

Just tell me or you just scold me and tell me what should I do...

I can accept all your enlighten... At least it make me feel more better...

Just please don't act that you guys really don't care I am annoying...

I don't want to be same as one of my school friends...

Even though everyone don't like her...

But we all just act like we don't care at all how is her behavior...

I really don't want ><! I wish you guys hurt me right now...

Rather than I figure out later...

I can straight away vanish from yours life...

Even though we might see each other everyday...

I can just try to make myself invisible in front of you...

I know escape won't solve any problem...

Won't delete your scar that I had made...

Won't reduce your pain in your heart...

But this way is the best for me and for everyone...

At least I won't continue disturb you anymore...

At least you not need to pretend anymore...

At least you won't feel so hurt anymore...

我们也许被注定了... 要认识对方... 要做朋友.. 要在一起...

我们也许被注定了... 要分开... 要做回陌生人...

可能我也许被注定... 会从回在一起... 做回朋友... 做回好友...

缘... 全部都要看缘分...

全已被注定了... 难以改变...

End...

Today diary...

Hehe... Last time my friend tells me before that want to know what had happen on that day, she want all the details... How could I remember lol... I yesterday ate what I also forget already... So today I want write down my diary as point form... :D

#6 morning wake up  #prepare for school  #dad got exam so early go school  #take away nasi lemak  #school bell ring  #went to class  #do homework  #PSK class fun  #cleaning class no teach  #BC class relax  #teacher in class late  #I don't understand BC  #BM relief  #Ho yeah!  #do nothing  #break time  #eat nugget  #MT class best ever  #start interest add-math  #understand teacher teaching  #BIO == no way  #no mood to study BIO  #boring  #after school  #stay back school  #company Kogilawani  #learn add-math  #back home  #eat lunch  #as usual  #take away food  #tired  #sleep 3 hours  #wake up eat dinner  #lucky not take away food  #prepare to tuition  #KIM class  #hate tuition  #but I feel ok  #very fun  #everyone telling jokes  #back home  #eat snack  #play bro's computer  #剑灵  #best game ever  #graphic so high  #look so real  #play awhile my bro calls  #he delete my account  #sad  #he tell me "you go buy own computer"  #boring  #open old computer  #SDO  #so long no play  #my bro angry  #wifi too slow  #argue with him  #beh song  #play random song  #alone  #epic fail  #game over  #go play with other people  #lose  #all hard song  #zhou da xia there  #hurt my hands  #cannot play at all  #give up  #writing blog  #prepare to sleep  #sleep...

== suck diary ever I had write... so confuse haha... but never mind I understand enough ^^

End :3

(╰_╯)# Woi Woi...

不爽咯...

有时看到妳所写的东东...

让我 beh song...

说什么 “ 想避开一切...

很寂寞...

没人关心我...

只有他唯一一个给到妳温暖... "

Woi Woi...

难道我...

不是人吗?

写了这些让我有感觉到...

我根本就不是妳的朋友这样...

我本人什么都没有...

有的就只有朋友与家人...

我天天都很开心的要去学校...

究竟是为了什么...

就是为了想见妳们全部...

天天我都很期待着...

可是每次跟我所想象的不一样...

失望...

可是我都没要求这么多...

我也没要妳们去改...

所以大家不要误会...

我只是想说出我的心里话...

我也不想隐瞒大家...

而且我今天所说的话很伤人心...

所以我现在想珍重的说声对不起...

因为我无法的控制我自己...

每次想到那些话...

想到那些的行为...

就然我很不开心...

邪恶的我就冒出来...

一直的想伤你...

我也感到很自卑...

真的很对不起...

再说一遍免得然妳们误会...

我没有要妳们去改变 OK!

完...

Broken Glasses...

这图是个碎酒杯...

就像我们人的心...

一碎了就很难要去补回去...

我想说的是...

我与我的好朋友的事...

我最近发觉到...

我与她的关系很像渐渐地完了...

都不像以前这样...

打来打去...

比来比去...

玩来玩去...

说来说去...

有很多话题这样说也说不完...

去她家玩啊玩啊...

有时还会一起出去玩...

回家的时候会推来推去...

妳喜欢的我都喜欢...

妳有玩的我都有玩...

虽然以前跟妳不一样班...

可是我们所做的事都是在一起...

可是现在...

没像以前这样的感觉了...

是有说有笑啦...

但是没有像当初这样...

那么的开心...

那么的亲密...

那时说妳可以跟我们在同一个班时...

我多么的开心...

以为可以在班上跟妳谈天谈到放学...

做什么东西都是一起...

但现在...

不是我所想象的一模一样...

我们现在所喜欢的东西都不一样了...

我们所玩的东西都不一样了...

我们所做的东西都不一样了...

全部都不一样了...

妳玩Mstar我没玩...

我玩SDO你没玩...

妳回家我还在学校...

我参加课外活动妳没有...

我都没有什么话题可以跟妳分享...

没有看到我这几天都很少跟你谈天我关于我的事...

我都不知道要跟你分享什么...

如果我说SDO的事...

妳都没有玩了跟妳说妳也只是会嗯嗯而已...

你跟我谈Mstar的话我也是一样也可以说嗯嗯而已...

因为我都没玩这个游戏...

妳跟我说关于妳跟你的男朋友的事也是一样...

我都没有男朋友...

如果我有我就不会说嗯嗯而已...

我至少我还可以说我的男朋友也是这样列式这样...

而且...

妳最近我对你的感觉...

有所不一样...

妳有时就是会没来学校...

又很快生病...

放学后又没有留下来...

有给我一个感觉我根本就跟妳不一样...

跟你配不上... 合不来...

也许是我想太多...

我也觉得不是妳的错...

也许是我的错...

我没有追上妳的脚步一起走...

我跟丢了...

手脚慢啊...

也许这个感觉就会跟着时间的流失渐渐地消失...

从噩梦醒过来...

也希望是这样吧...

完...

TT Sad sad...

Huhu TT...

Every time my friend renewed her blogs...

Her blogs always is interesting!!!

When I read back my blogs...

I fell so sad!!!

Why my blogs is so boring!!!

I try my best to write as best as I can...

But still can't write as interest as her...

So disappointed...

Why I can't even write a nice story...

T^T!!!

My English so weak...

My brain!!! <<< Empty

Can't even think a interesting story!!!

Ahhh!!!

Feel so down!!!

Brain empty empty TT...

End... TT

Perfect

I'll never be perfect...

I'll never be cool...

I'll always be nothing...

Perfect song by Jaicko...

I have fall in love to this song since my friend share a video on twitter...

That video is great

-thumbs up-

I keep listen this song for so long...

Thinks deeply...

I thought a lot of what I had done my whole life...

Feel so happy :3

At least my life is perfect...

I feel so pleased...

God had colors my life full of rainbow colors...

At least I didn't live alone...

At least I have family...

At least I have friends...

At least I have food to eat...

At least got place to stay...

Even though...

I am not as rich as the other...

But at least I have wonderful life...

I really appreciate...

Thank you so much!!!

End... ><

( I know it suck...:3 my English is not good as my friend... Her blogs is interesting... My is boring... I feel so stupid ahh!!! )