Ohh :(

Hello folks~
Well, the result is up.
The result out at 12p.m. but I waited until 12.30p.m. then check, because I was not ready...
First, I searched up the website but the server down...
Then I used some old fashion way which is SMS.
It works every time during the server down.
However, no reply as well.
So I end up searching one my local university website.

MAKLUMAN

SEMAKAN TAWARAN bagi IJAZAH boleh dibuat mulai 02/08/2018 04:00 PM hingga 02/09/2018 11:55 PM

Damn 2 August?
Next local university website!
I typed in my IC number and boom!

Dukacita, permohonan anda tidak berjaya.

Damn I was like dafuq?!
Not even 1 course out of 5?
I literally cried ;_;
Then I almost gave up.
After that, someone called me.
I left my phone at living room but I didn't expect my dad went and picked it up.
Argh! 
It is from Water and I got zero mood in talking with anyone so basically I gave him a halfheartedly response.
He got it and ended the call...
My bad, I really suck at controlling my emotion sometime.
So after that half hours, SMS got something.
"Tahniah, anda berjaya ditawarkan program PG32 di UPM. Layari laman web UA berkaitan untuk surat tawaran."
Okay...?
Quickly searched up what is PG32 :3 
However, I am slightly disappointed for not getting my first choice, Doctor of Veterinary Medicine.
Instead of getting that, I got my 7th choice which is Bachelor of Animal Science...
Well, I totally jinx myself by saying that I will definitely got the 7th choice.
Here I am with an offer of that course :3
Damn, intuition sometime can be a bitch too.
What's now?
Hmm... 
I am kinda clueless about the course I am getting...
First, I was like okay? 
At least got a course right? 
Should be happy!
Parents said hey got an offer, just do your best if you think this is what you want.
However, my dad's family side kinda disapprove of doing animal husbandry course.
No future prospect it seems. 
Still considering until just now...
The more I tried to understand about the course, the more I feel sick about it...
Why you ask?
Here's the reason:
You will be learning how to handle animals such as chickens, cows, goats, pigs and much more.
How you will take care them, make sure their hygiene and their nutrition. 
Okay sound interesting...
You will learn how to milk the cow.
Okay sound fun...
Then one part where you will how to slaughter them for livestock.
OH NO!
I totally missed out this part when I selected this.
You see, the purpose I am choosing Veterinary because I want to save them.
But right now, I am going to learn how to feed them, take care of them.
Let them become fat and juicy.
Lastly slaughter them!?
Because we human eat those to survive.
OH NO!
Sound so sick to me!
I don't think I can do this...
It is not that I am scare of blood or anything else.
The point is where you took care of them and gave them hope that life is great.
Then lastly scarified them?!
No this is wrong in many ways.
After eating chickens and lambs for like 20 years, I just realized how cruel is it?
Shame on me!
I am slightly headache @@
What should I do next?!
I am slightly panic but not much yet!
Dude, I am trying hard to find out all the details about Animal Science in UPM :3
Damn, they never update the details.
What's now?!
Two choices:
First, I accept the offer, finish this course and see if I can switch my major in Master.
Or to wait for another year and reapply for Veterinary Medicine.
But that I will waste damn hell lot of time and what if I am not capable of doing Medicine?
This is a lot to think...
Oh boi, il mio futuro.

Waiting...

Argh!?

The result is supposed to come out today and now it is postponed to tomorrow.

Seriously?!

Damn, if you guys know that it is impossible to finish on today then you shouldn't have put the due date today.

Just like how you guys postponed the release date of my interview!

Left 4 days for me to prepare my interview.

Such a pain in the ass D:

Giving people false hope, is that really fun to do?

Geez!

I am freaky excited to see what I can get and move on to a new target, a new life goal.

Then what? I have to wait for another day?

Shake my head!

I am lifeless to the fullest now and I have to lifeless for another 15 hours?!

RIP...

Sleepless night

Salut all night owls~

Here I am again~

Seeking a place to rant rather than sleeping.

Before coming to blog I am singing songs despite how bad my voice is lol.

Well... Hmm actually there isn't any story to tell.

Nothing special has happen recently.

What a bummer (touchwood!)

It just happens that tonight I couldn't sleep @@

I fell asleep with my earphones on for the past two days which is a miracle! (all thanks to asmr >///<)

It feels great but sadly I couldn't recall any dream...

Hopefully later night get to dream nice and sweet dream :)

However, I feel like something is missing.

I have been thinking...

Almost 25% of my life is over.

What have I done?

Studied to the max to score UPSR, PMR, SPM and recently STPM. 

Went to tuition during the free time as a protection or guarantee to score perfectly.

Met a lot of people during my way up to now...

All kind of people that exist in this place, Earth.

The good ones, the bad ones, the odd ones, the crazy ones, the mean ones and last but not least the worst ones...

Oh, don't forget about the dramas that directly or indirect involved.

Right now, I am waiting for my application to further my studies in university.

It will come out on Monday, yes upcoming Monday.

I don't know which universities and courses I will get...

Nervous? 

Hell yeah...

With my pointer, I am not confident whether I can get one or not because all the universities I picked are mainstream.

But all I can do is go with the flow.

To the future me, if things go smoothly then congrats and you shall work smart!

But if not, just find another way round and move on.

Maybe the alternative is better than the original plans!

To be honest, I feel like I have been wasting time.

Government university application really takes up a lot of precious time.

Is it bad? 

Half is the answer.

Bad is where I waste a lot of time and I might get too old when I finished everything.

Good is where I can have a lot of time for myself, to do whatever stuffs that I have missed.

But of course, financial is another factor :3

I know I have said this tons of time, but if only all the stuffs are price tag-less.

It will be a blast!

I want to play a lot of challenging adventurous places, but sadly those are expensive af.

I still have another month to spend.

I have spent a lot of time watching YouTube and TV.

I played with my friend sometime but the network is killing the mood, urgh…

Oh I also did some crazy walk trip plans, I walked very far endlessly until my legs hurt.

I just walk wherever at somewhere, this is when I let my brain does it all.

It is dangerous indeed but ha it is very calming. 

I also went out to eat with friends too!

Food is life!!!

But I am getting lazy in learning foreign languages @@ (stucked and neglected)

I am very worry about my capability in surviving through the university life though...

Since it is totally different from the past few years in schools.

I really need to brush something up...

Since I watched so much of dramas.

I does feel the need of spices in my life.

Spices such as having intimate relationship with someone you love.

My thoughts?

I always thought I don't needt in a relationship.

I guess it is pointless, I never understand what is all love about (maybe in the future?)

I have seen a lot of relationship that end up falling.

I guess best example will be our parents (for most of the people)

I can survive by just me, myself.

But haha I will still get envy sometime.

Hey who doesn't if all of your friends have experienced it!

The romance K-Drama I watched recently in TV.

Gosh, it is too fantasy, sweet and romantic.

Who doesn't want it anyways!?

Okay, at least I am still human D:

I was started to worry if I am asexual but nahh.

It will be awesome to have someone in mind, that can make you go crazy about, make your heart goes chaos <3

Huhu but only those fictional characters that can make me go crazy T^T...

Oh just like the characters from the Kingsman!

Just finish watching both chapters!

My god, I couldn't screaming how handsome they are!

Guys in suits, my weakness >///<

I guess I set my expectation too high up...

I don't even think I deserve having such person.

Me, face with pimples and dislike makeup.

Well, it is not that I don't know how to make myself look better.

It is just that I just want to be original and comfortable @@

Why spent hella moneys and hours on something like that?!

People always says makeup is a form of politeness.

I respect that but personally, I really don't understand why put up on some mask...

Some people makeup and become totally 2 different people.

That is really scary...

Isn't that can be called deception?

But it is just my opinion, that can be many other reason why makeup is important.

Heck maybe in the future I will makeup as well.

Hell, I wish not because it will really hurt self-esteem whenever you take off you mask/makeup.

My lord, look where I rant to!?

From nothing to tell then boom, whole essay coming out.

All sort of random thoughts, tsk tsk tsk…

Geez, tomorrow I still have to wake up early and wait for the phone call from hardware tech support -_-

I shall stop now!

But upcoming Monday, I must reschedule my time!

No more slacking, this time for sure!

Really need to get in shape and all-rounded!

See you soon next time!

Ciao~

Adesso basta

Enough is enough.
You know what?
Deep down my subconscious, I just want to say... Fuck!
I want to yell!
I want to scream!
Or worst I want to smack someone hard, like really really hard!
I always visual myself hitting someone as bad as I could just to relieve myself.
Don't ask me why, I don't know much myself either.
I am really not in a mood!
I am in denial!
I just hate myself in such condition.
I hate that I couldn't sleep every night.
I am so mentally fatigue but hell wouldn't allow me to sleep in peace!
I couldn't sleep just like my other family members.
Too much thoughts, too much of brain activities that I wished I could just press a button so that it will be shut down.
Fuck!
Even if I managed to sleep, I will end up in nightmares.
All tooth that fell off my mouth and being in a zombie apocalypse.
No, it is not because I played too much of Left 4 Dead 2.
I only played it few times with my friend and her bf and bf's friend.
I have dreamt it for like passed few months before I even have that game.
Yes, I couldn't sleep well for a long time now.
Double yes, it is frustrating me!
It is funny that I even have the continuous dreaming about zombie apocalypse.
Yesterday, I scolded someone in my dream.
"It is because of you guys' carelessness, you all let those zombies back in our base again!"  
The word 'again' like I have non-stop killing those zombies.
I am hella scare that I might get bitten in the dream, but I haven't encounter one yet.
I even searched up what those dreams are telling me.
Well it is just some insecure and some life changing shit.
What my subconscious trying to hint me?
Now, I am back to my depressive episode again.
Hiding myself from everything.
I spent my whole damn day reading.
I let myself dipped into the world of the books I am reading.
Non-fiction or fiction will all do the tricks. 
A popular comfort-zone I have now.
Leaving all the messages unseen.
To be honest, I know everyone hates that.
Yet, I am still doing it.
I did say I will change it. 
But no, I failed to do so.
Why you ask?
I don't fucking know!
I don't even know what is wrong with me!
I am lost!
I am fucking piece of a potato!
It is funny, this depressive episode just came out of nowhere.
I was still sane before that, I guess 'sane' is a bit wrong choice of word.
I guess 'in elated episode' is a better replacement.
I went to a movie with my tuition friend or maybe what he claimed himself as 'trial bf' just few days ago.
And yes I really enjoy so much during the movie, Ant-man this time really hit the top with their plot.
And yes, we went to some shop to check on my router because it seems like I really need to change it.
He did a lot of help by asking those people in the shop for me.
Which I personally detest to do it myself because I hate asking.
I even hyped before the night and will inform my friend about what will going on that day.
Yet the next morning, I just lost it.
All seems dull to me.
I lost my drive.
I am back to the pathetic self.
I started to ignore all the messages.
I don't know man...
I keep trying to find excuses.
I always blame on the health condition I am in.
I blame on it that caused me into such up and down episodes.
I always blame on the increase dose of Levothyroxine Sodium which directly increase the side effects of those drug. 
Fuck the side effects, I am going to be bald soon if it doesn't stop.
Sometime I even doubt that whether the doctors knew what they are doing.
After so long, so many years.
It seems like this disease getting worst with all those treatments. 
I never sign up for all these.
Or did I?
Oh me in the past-life, did you sign something like this to pay off your sins?
No, I never believe that but somehow it kinda make a bit sense.
Well, I know everything happens for a reason.
But what?
I can't stop complaining!
What should I do now...  
I thought I have gotten over it.
I even set a lot of inspiring quote backgrounds for my new laptop desktop.
Trying to remind myself to stop all these bullshitting.
Like hell it will work for me.
I don't know what now...
Maybe I already know the answer of it but I just let my negative emotions get the best of me?
No maybe I don't even want to change.
Is this what my mind telling me?
Damn, you know how hard I am trying to understand what myself want.
I always do a lot of research on topic of mind.
I downloaded the well-known Paul Ekman's book to just understand my own emotions.
I even bought books about how to understand myself through body language or non-verbal communication. 
I understand when I am stress, I will constantly self preening.
I know all that but I just don't get the purpose of it.
What am I depress about.
Why am I making myself so complicated...
When I depress I will end up going for a jog every evening.
However, I don't understand what is wrong with the weather these days.
Are you guys trying to make fun of me now?
Always rain during evening, rain during when I want to get the peace of mind.
I am a person that go full blow exercising when I am fucking depress.
I got this habit back in form 6.
I have a crush, oh correction: my heart have a crush but not my mind.
I am surely sure that, him and I will never work from the start even though my heart thinks otherwise.
Lastly, it ended up bad.
I realized that something, a pathetic yet cruel truth.
It is that, if you don't have fucking nice arse or boobs, you are fucking out of the games.
Yes, I concluded it after so many guys confessed to me about that.
I just don't understand sometime, I get a lot of guys confessed to me that they have crush on someone.
It is funny because I always get to know, they just tell me about that.
Maybe to them, I am a bro and never a woman to them.
When I asked them what do you like about her.
Many will say she is pretty. 
A few will say she is kind/sweet.
And mostly will say oh man she has a nice arse and body shape, dayum!
Maybe they are joking to me, maybe I am wrong about men, well I hope I am wrong.
If you are a man and found this offended.
It is either you are not that kind person or you are.
You yourself know.
I am just spitting all the opinions.
So when depress, this saddening truth will emerge and it will remind me.
I must get fit, hell I don't want to lose to anyone.
Hah, I complained so much in here.
Maybe I am the one that have problems.
I am blabbering now...
It is 3.30a.m now and I am still being a night owl writing out my random thoughts.
People always say family is the best.
Every time people says that, I cringe.
Even sometimes I say it myself, I cringe too.
Damn, I don't get it.
Maybe I shouldn't complain about it because some people might be worsen than me.
Same goes to the sickness, I should be grateful that I am alive.
But sometime I just cannot stop the anger in me that what a parents I have.
So disappointing in them, so disgust on them but couldn't hate them because they did good things as well.
At least I am not sleeping under the bridge or eat sand for lunch or dinner.
But one thing for sure, I hardly miss them when I am out for so long without seeing them.
I went out alone, I went to Melaka for few days without them.
I feel great.
Although I am alone but no I don't miss them...
You know how angry am I to see no lunch when it is suppose lunch time?
Yes, luckily today I bought some ingredients before heading home after appointment.
It is not like you got work or duty to do.
All you do is laying on bed, playing your fucking phone yet you don't even know how to function it.
God dammit, spent all the time with phone and facebook.
The worst is that all you think is about yourself.
When things got ugly, all you will say is 'just let me die or something'.
Fuck, stop the fucking die shit.
I am tired of the dying craps of yours.
You never once try to help yourself even though how many times we tried to talk to you.
Your stubborn that ruined you.
Damn, you never know how hurt we are when you pull those string on us.
Fuck you, really.
Deep inside me, I am done with it.
It is 4 a.m. now.
Jeez, sooner or later my dad will be up and he will be snapped if he found me awake...
I still got a lot of bullshit to write.
This is me.
Yes, I swear a lot especially in my mind.
Well, I guess not all will be accustomed who am I really... @@
Since I always act nice or I can say fake nice?
It is not a proud thing to say but I am being a hypocrite all the time.
At least that is one thing I know about myself.
If someone could read mind, I will be damned.
This post is so so long.
I don't even know if I should put it out.
I always write a lot of negative stuffs but ended up in draft.
Haha because I don't wish to spoil my own image?
Oh great, I feel slightly tired now...
I don't even bother to check on grammar now :<
Damn, proofreading old habit!
So I guess this is it, I should stop before getting slit throat by my dad...
Ciao~

Dopamine

Where are all the dopamines when I really need it?

Anything different?

Yo world!
Do you guys see anything different when you guys enter here just now?
Yes yes? 
No no?
Okay haha I know it is nothing special, pardon me for being childish.
It is just a preloading page that I copied from a website :P Click here to go to where I get this preloading page 
I am really happy being able to change my theme, even though it is just copy and paste code in html part haha!
It is so fun to mess with the html code.
But I know that preloading page can be troublesome.
Let me know if you hate it, I will remove it asap!

To be honest, I didn't know that all websites are typed in code, it is just recently I knew about it.
(There is no too late to learn anything, right?!)
You see, the old me is a stubborn person, I used to hate learning new stuffs especially the things that I don't know about.
Why? I guess maybe because I don't want to admit that I am suck at it?
(My ego level is beyond infinity level -face palm-)
However, I like the new me now - the inquisitive one!

Yet, I am still suck at it, I just know how to copy and paste :P
But I want to learn more and to make my own webpage.
Thanks to my mom, I helped her copy and paste code for her job last time.
Then I get to know what is html all about.
Last time I thought we just add the html code in the layout (blogger) then music/clock comes out just like in my blog.
But then I didn't know by writing this, there are also html behind it @@

There is a senpai in my office that know much about html, let me introduce you the Mr A the IT guy!
I like him so much, he is nice, a very responsible person.
He printed out a bunch of notes and quizes for a non-related worker like me, of course not just me still got others.
I hope to learn more about it from him within this last month!
Thanks ya, I will try hard to master it and not gonna let you down!
Lastly, the things I like about him is that he plays games like a pro too!
In office and in game, two different fellow haha!
(lol if he found out I talked so much about him, I will jump off the cliff and die of embarrassment) 

That's all for today!
I will try to post as much as I can about what's going in my life.
To write down and to live a life where I will always remember.
Hope you guys have a wonderful life as well!
Ciao!

I tried so hard

Why try so hard to hold on something that isn't yours?
Why try so hard to keep up with someone that doesn't look upon you?
Why try so hard to keep on looking backwards which there is no turning back anyways?
Why try so hard to wake up every single day but keep doing the same thing over and over again?
Why try so hard to be perfect, to impress and to get attention from other people but actually there isn't one? 
Why try so hard to find happiness when there is no such thing that can make you happy?
Why try so hard to find the truth when lies always be there with you?
Why try so hard to keep your sanity when the life you live on always fuck you up?

Confuse and lost as always...

Today story of my life #13

Hello world!
It is another story of my life.
Apparently, there is nothing special happened today, I just wanna write something here.
-something- 
Ahem, okay no more joke.
Let's get into business, but I want to tell you that it will be super boring like those in the previous posts, as usual.
Another deep thought about myself again XD
Bear with me haha! 

It is been few days!
I worked non-stop for few bloody days!
Drafting, proofreading, observing, looking for drama in office and so much more!
I am tired!
Physically and mentally!
I know same old words over and over again :3
However, I feel extremely great after working for so long.
It refrains me from thinking too much.
Before the work loads came, I spent too much time flash back old stuffs - good and bad.
There is one thing that I am sure about myself throughout this past depressing weeks.
I hate to admit that it is I am afraid of losing someone I love.
-cough-
I always thought I can be with myself and never depend on someone.
I always thought I am an independent person.
The person who will always holds "who need anyone anyways!" principle. 
-cough hypocrite-
I can't believe I am so scare to the extent which I can go crazy for few weeks.
Why and what happen if you ever wondered?
To cut to the chase, I have been smelling rotten smell on someone.
Someone that I hate so much due to certain things but I can't lose him too.
At first, I thought maybe I am wrong about it, maybe it is because he doesn't bath or anything, yes?
But the smell of rotten meat getting stronger every time I am near to that fellow.
Plus that fellow got some health issue too...
Right at that moment, I am so scare that that fellow's time is close to the end.
Maybe he will just vanish, gone into thin air just like the others.
I don't think I can't handle that. 
I told my feeling to my bro because it is so urgent but I regretted as usual.
He is just like others people, always shrugging me off and pretending that nothing happen.
But I can't blame him too, he himself got problems that I can't relate and handle.
The feeling that I always want to escape from and trying to run away - feeling of losing someone...
This is why I always trying to distant myself if I got too carried away with anyone.
Well, it fails once and I learned my mistake and I won't make mistake twice. 
Am I being selfish?
By being nice to someone, gaining people's trust and then turn their back on?
Well I didn't that do at first, it is until somebody took away my faith.
All thanks to silly me that letting my guard off to the wrong person.
Yes or no for that question, doesn't matter to me anymore.
It depends on how you perceive me anyway, I have no right to judge either. 
Somehow that is what life is isn't?  
Life always reminds me that:
People comes and goes.
People doesn't stop and waits for you.
You are just nobody to start with and end with the same nobody. 
Heck, I am going to get through this by hypnotizing myself again just like how I did for the past time. 
Tsk, the more you know about me, the more you will see how fuck up I am.
I am just a self-centered fellow :3
I am just like those characters in typical tv drama.
Unfortunately, I am not the main character that all good and mighty.
Yet, I am always be those side characters that full of jealousy and hatred in me.
That depicted how am I in person. 
Well, it is not like there will someone read all through here, right @@?
If you are still reading it, kudos to you seriously...
I love you.
Seriously, I mean that.
 
Well, other than all about being sad, depress, deep and bla bla bla!
-trying to change topic to avert awkwardness-
Oh boy, you will never understand how much I love OT. 
I love OT so much!
After office time, the office is so empty and less stress.
It is so damn chill and peaceful compared to office hours.
Of course there is another reason why I love staying back haha but I guess you can guess it!
Too bad I can't stay later than 6pm because the way back from office is dark and dangerous...
Tch, my mom always ditch me after 5pm which is why I can't stay long.
By the way, I can't believe I have been working for almost half a year.
I mean almost, my contract is going to end next month.
It is kinda sad because I am going to leave and continuing my studies.
I don't even know where I am going to study in the future, still waiting for the result.
But some part of me really wish to stay and continue working there.
I learned quite some skills in there, I really wish I could have more time, learn more and contribute to help the office.
That office has the same age as my brother haha, from young till now I see and play in that office.
So much memories.
Haha, it is true that my friend and my teacher once told me that I should not work more than 4 months.
This is because you gonna lost your interest to future study and continue working. 
Well I am going to proof to you guys that I am not!
I am gonna fucking study and work my way to my future ( if I have )
Oh lord, I don't even know what the future have for me to deal with.
I might pray for all of you to do whatever that makes you happy too!
Let's fight together!
Roar!!!
Okay, I know that's unnecessary haha... 
Ciao!

Dream

“What is the purpose of my life, is it doesn't have to do with learning to let go?” - Jack Johnson

Dream is what most of the people have in them.
However, sadly not all dream come true just the way we want.
Even though with all kind of efforts and determinations, dream is still a dream for some people.
Does that mean that we need to learn to let go something we truly want?
Isn't that unfair?
I wonder... Is life even fair from the start?

...

I came across people telling me that the job they are having right now aren't what they first dreamed of.
Mr A the IT guy, I mentioned before remember right?
He told me that before becoming an IT guy, he actually wanted to learn graphic design.
Maybe because during applications, he and his parents messed up, they thought IT and that are the same?
I am quite surprise to find out that he likes graphic design.
My brother doesn't feel happy to become a graphic designer.
As far as I know, many people aren't respect those graphic designer...
They thought drawing is an easy job, everyone can draw is what they think so they could just look down on them.
Drawing needs ideas, passions, supports, respects and much more in order to do accomplish their tasks well splendidly.
We really need to show some respect to graphic designer!
I can see Mr A the IT guy really interested in those, but he got stuck into this IT business in the office.
Busy all day and night due to unorganized system in the office.
Good thing is that he still manage to learn all Photoshop/Illustration by himself.
I admire his spirit.
I shall hope he is happy with his current job.

Second person that I want to talk about is F-san from the office too, the one mixed Malay and Japanese.
Well this guy, at first I am not fond of him because of the rumors about him being a lazy fellow.
You can see my post <Observation>, I regretted talking so much bad stuff about him last time.
My first impression of him is no so good.
Worst is I can't believe I hated boss so much in the beginning too, I need to retract that statement!!!
Sorry boss!!! 
I really should never judge people by their covers and of course rumors too.
Thanks so much boss for letting me go for lunch with the customers and get to eat nice western food!
I truly never expect boss to be easy-going type haha...
Gomen'nasai M-san(boss) and F-san!
By having lunch with F-san, I am able to know little about him.
F-san as a business/salesman, but he actually wants to involve himself with astronomy stuff.
I kinda knew he will say that, I dunno why but my intuition told me that.
Oh boi, when he starts with those galaxy talks, I can see his eyes beaming like a kid.
He explained about outer space, told me about how he saw Jupiter when using his friend high-modern telescope.
He knows a lot of stuff but why doesn't he go for his dream?
I am so curious because he is so into those stars stuff but why end up in this office?
I don't dare to ask, scare it it is something he doesn't want to share @@? 
I will just hope the best to him anyway.

...

I really want to know more about people around me and what actually they have been through.
I bet some people want to tell their story too but can't find anyone to share with.
I wish to be that person but sometime I can't promise to keep it a secret ==
I am so bad I know it TT because sometime I can't handle the thoughts so I write it here.
Of course I make it anonymous so no one will know anyway haha! 
Through listening I really can see so many different story from different people.
With this I started to ponder more things about life.
How intriguing life is.
Unfair, cruel yet it is still fun to explore.
In my perspective it is truly sad that what you really wish to be VS reality, is just like day and night - a different story.
I really wish they could just be what they want to be and be happy too!
Anyway, all the best for everyone, of course to you readers and last but not least myself haha!
Definitely cannot forget myself, I am totally a self-centered fellow for sure #confirm!
Well! It is late right now and got to go work tomorrow.
Ciao!