Sleepless night

Salut all night owls~

Here I am again~

Seeking a place to rant rather than sleeping.

Before coming to blog I am singing songs despite how bad my voice is lol.

Well... Hmm actually there isn't any story to tell.

Nothing special has happen recently.

What a bummer (touchwood!)

It just happens that tonight I couldn't sleep @@

I fell asleep with my earphones on for the past two days which is a miracle! (all thanks to asmr >///<)

It feels great but sadly I couldn't recall any dream...

Hopefully later night get to dream nice and sweet dream :)

However, I feel like something is missing.

I have been thinking...

Almost 25% of my life is over.

What have I done?

Studied to the max to score UPSR, PMR, SPM and recently STPM. 

Went to tuition during the free time as a protection or guarantee to score perfectly.

Met a lot of people during my way up to now...

All kind of people that exist in this place, Earth.

The good ones, the bad ones, the odd ones, the crazy ones, the mean ones and last but not least the worst ones...

Oh, don't forget about the dramas that directly or indirect involved.

Right now, I am waiting for my application to further my studies in university.

It will come out on Monday, yes upcoming Monday.

I don't know which universities and courses I will get...

Nervous? 

Hell yeah...

With my pointer, I am not confident whether I can get one or not because all the universities I picked are mainstream.

But all I can do is go with the flow.

To the future me, if things go smoothly then congrats and you shall work smart!

But if not, just find another way round and move on.

Maybe the alternative is better than the original plans!

To be honest, I feel like I have been wasting time.

Government university application really takes up a lot of precious time.

Is it bad? 

Half is the answer.

Bad is where I waste a lot of time and I might get too old when I finished everything.

Good is where I can have a lot of time for myself, to do whatever stuffs that I have missed.

But of course, financial is another factor :3

I know I have said this tons of time, but if only all the stuffs are price tag-less.

It will be a blast!

I want to play a lot of challenging adventurous places, but sadly those are expensive af.

I still have another month to spend.

I have spent a lot of time watching YouTube and TV.

I played with my friend sometime but the network is killing the mood, urgh…

Oh I also did some crazy walk trip plans, I walked very far endlessly until my legs hurt.

I just walk wherever at somewhere, this is when I let my brain does it all.

It is dangerous indeed but ha it is very calming. 

I also went out to eat with friends too!

Food is life!!!

But I am getting lazy in learning foreign languages @@ (stucked and neglected)

I am very worry about my capability in surviving through the university life though...

Since it is totally different from the past few years in schools.

I really need to brush something up...

Since I watched so much of dramas.

I does feel the need of spices in my life.

Spices such as having intimate relationship with someone you love.

My thoughts?

I always thought I don't needt in a relationship.

I guess it is pointless, I never understand what is all love about (maybe in the future?)

I have seen a lot of relationship that end up falling.

I guess best example will be our parents (for most of the people)

I can survive by just me, myself.

But haha I will still get envy sometime.

Hey who doesn't if all of your friends have experienced it!

The romance K-Drama I watched recently in TV.

Gosh, it is too fantasy, sweet and romantic.

Who doesn't want it anyways!?

Okay, at least I am still human D:

I was started to worry if I am asexual but nahh.

It will be awesome to have someone in mind, that can make you go crazy about, make your heart goes chaos <3

Huhu but only those fictional characters that can make me go crazy T^T...

Oh just like the characters from the Kingsman!

Just finish watching both chapters!

My god, I couldn't screaming how handsome they are!

Guys in suits, my weakness >///<

I guess I set my expectation too high up...

I don't even think I deserve having such person.

Me, face with pimples and dislike makeup.

Well, it is not that I don't know how to make myself look better.

It is just that I just want to be original and comfortable @@

Why spent hella moneys and hours on something like that?!

People always says makeup is a form of politeness.

I respect that but personally, I really don't understand why put up on some mask...

Some people makeup and become totally 2 different people.

That is really scary...

Isn't that can be called deception?

But it is just my opinion, that can be many other reason why makeup is important.

Heck maybe in the future I will makeup as well.

Hell, I wish not because it will really hurt self-esteem whenever you take off you mask/makeup.

My lord, look where I rant to!?

From nothing to tell then boom, whole essay coming out.

All sort of random thoughts, tsk tsk tsk…

Geez, tomorrow I still have to wake up early and wait for the phone call from hardware tech support -_-

I shall stop now!

But upcoming Monday, I must reschedule my time!

No more slacking, this time for sure!

Really need to get in shape and all-rounded!

See you soon next time!

Ciao~