心里想说的话

我要求不多

我只想要一点点的自由

我读也读了

我考也考了

认真的时候我也认真了

你要我考好来

我也尽量的去做

难道我就不能做我想要的事

我想学跳舞

不给 我没关系

我想学武术

不给 我也没关系

我要开电脑跟朋友玩也不行吗？

酱我还能做什么？

我到底还有什么不满足你的？

每次玩到一下子

就会叫我马上关

还有一个 ==

他妈的

我玩着玩着竟然给我看 youtube

明知道我们家 wifi 慢

还给我去看东西

啊啊！！

我有点受不叻了

难不成给我一点机会都不行吗？

==

am I?

am I a good friend?

I am wondering for so long...

Everyone expect that I am good and friendly person...

Did I? 

...

am I mature enough?

I was scrolling Facebook news feed as usual.

Suddenly I saw a photo that is,

two guys very matching couple,

and they a lot of sweet things.

At first I was laughing at them,

and I think that they are crazy person.

Yet,

after I saw the comments,

they all were very supportive.

They didn't laugh or insult,

they were just congrats the two couple.

I realize that I am the person that judge someone by their appearance,

without checking detail...

...

am I kind enough?

There was something happen on mid year,

and it happen again on this month.

After notice what she done again,

my mind was like,

I have to make her regret that what she had done.

Why I have this kind of mindset?

Everyone were just keep quite and don't wish to make it big.

Why I want her to fail this time?

( maybe someone will say I am jealous of her =m= )

When someone ask me,

am I hate her?

I don't know how to answer it :<

I don't know am I really hate her,

but impossible I don't want to be friend with her,

by just because of her mistake.

That is impossible.

I am quite confuse ahh...

...

=m= Tomorrow exam some more play hehe...

End of the story :3

Yeah

Yeah baby!
Exam today and it is Sejarah subject.
Lucky I managed to answer all question ^^
So happy ahh,
finally finish my most scare subject.
Yet in other side,
I quite worry some one,
or I worry too much?
Nevermind.
Just 顺其自然 :D

The end :D
Simply post haha

What's now :/

Ahh what's now?

Why many problems keep appear?

When problems can vanish?

Someone can please answer my question...

My brother~

Why you have to cry infront of me?

You know I can't see someone crying...

I remember last time,

when we two are still young.

We always fight for the computer,

and at last you sure win.

Now,

we never argue any more.

How great that is?

You help me to be mature,

because of you,

I am not addicted to computer games.

Yet,

because of me,

I ruined your's life.

You know when I heard my parents say that,

you fail your test again.

I quite sad :(

Why you didn't tell me about it.

Yesterday,

how sad am I looking you.

Your's eye was red,

but you lie to me that nothing happen.

Everyday seem you very late back home,

I though you are playing around,

but you are working 2 job now.

This few day keep worrying about this =m=

Haiz dunno how to spell out the feeling of this sadness.

By the way so long didn't write blog @@

Dunno how to write essay in English already.

haha xDD

=3=

=3=

So long didn't see me in blog huh?

Recently,

I am so lazy to write down what had happen in my life.

However,

I would like to share what had happen on Teacher's Day.

I am so excited :3

Hoping Teacher's Day faster come,

this is because I got present ribbon dance for my teachers ^^

We all practice so hard just for that day.

Hohoho~

The main purpose for joining dance is... xDD

SHOWING OFF!!! -laughing- xDD

Yet, when think back,

nothing can show off.

By the way,

when I feel sad or what,

dance help me a lot.

It make me forget everything.

I love dance but I don't know how to dance.

This is the sad news /.\

On 16th May 2014,

early morning go school with my friend.

Then make up,

my gosh I hate make up,

plus I don't know how to make up.

=3= However,

got a lot of people help me make up,

ok lah not so teruk. xDD

Then practice for last round and put the bag in the room

Then we go hall there.

Feel quite nervous LOL.

We all though everyone will shout, scream and clap loudly,

but sadly,

we felt disappointed.

The song start early,

cut the important part,

and make us confuse in the beginning.

== Moreover,

When I open the ribbon,

my ribbon stuck on the fan.

Stupid stage so low /.\

Mei Lin's ribbon can't open,

then when I swing my ribbon,

stuck again this time is on the light!

Arh!

So disappointed,

but still got people clap lah my friends say.

After dance feel so tired lor.

Rest at the backstage.

Watching them play that ribbon,

fighting each other /.\

After that,

I want to change my cloth,

so we all go back the room.

== Then some teacher say,

" I think some suspicious boys go in the room and take something "

That time I though what o.o

I though the naughty boys just broke in for fun.

Then I go in the room,

I feel something weird.

Something missing,

the bags are missing /.\

That time I shock,

in my mind is,

" OHH NOO MY BAG, I CAN'T LOST MY BAG, MY BAG IS ANTIC, THE ONLY BAG I HAVE "

=3= Damn

After that,

without doubt I go find teacher Chong, our Chinese teacher.

I explain to him what happen then he straight away go the room and check it out.

== Man seriously I hate being prank.

The first time ever my things missing.

Then everyone find their bag up and down.

Then Felicia saw her bag at the canteen,

but the money inside is gone.

Then Mei Lin's near guardhouse there.

This stupid boys very clever.

They slowly put our bag in different places without any traces.

Then mine haven found TT~

My bag TT

Then they all tired already so they rest at canteen.

Felicia and I keep find my bag,

then she saw my bag in the longkang /.\

Ahhh!!! How dare they put my bag in longkang, with dirty water!

My precious bag TT

Shit them!

I feel so powerless /.\

I can't figure out who are they,

who the thief.

== I won't just leave it.

If teacher figure out who were them,

I might lost control /.\

How dare they stole our things,

even though is not important things /.\

I just hate LONG HAND!

*Long hand in BM panjang tangan mean like to steel people's things*

AHH!!! I HATE THAT!

I CURSE THEM!

CURSE THEM WILL LOST THEIR HAND SOON!

I know I am so bad :<

Shit them!!! x2

I feel so sorry also for teacher Chong and some other teacher helping us.

On Teacher's also need to disturb them.

I caused teacher unable to celebrate Teacher's Day.

So sorry T^T

I will pay back with cupcake or caripup xDD

End

  

Hell or Heaven...

 

These few days, ohh not these few days. It had been passed for two week already. I felt I am still having a long dream that hard to be interrupt, can be called too deep. I don't know where, what, how or anything to start my story. It seem so blur to remind it last few days, but I want to write down so that I never forget this most crazy dream.

 

 

 

          On 25th March 2014.

Yeah, it is holiday, and on this day I got an appointment from hospital, as usual. ( I got thyroid so I got appointment lak :3 ) I having that for three years already so my doctor recommend me to try out this radiation medication and it on this day. I felt happy because maybe I might fully cure after that at all, no need medication, appointment, burden o.o and so on lak. I remember I went there so early, but because I am too excited == I had to wait 1 hour, but then finally came xDD I went inside the room and had the radiation medication. Doctor called me to go back home quickly and.......... ( I can't remember here >< )



          On 1th April 2014.
Huuu. What the heck. These was what I said on that day. I saw so many people, patients, doctors, so many sound, so blur, hand pain, headache, someone calling my name... I don't know what had happen, in my mind got a lot of question marks, but I can't speak, after all I blur again.......... ( =m= It on April fool day! Not funny ok! )



          On 3th April 2014.
I woke up. I still felt the headache and everything. I saw my parents they look so worry o.o? Question marks again but this time I can speak finally, I ask what happen? They replied said that I at ICU. LOL that time I though what, I though they are kidding me, so I continue sleep, I felt so sleepy zzz.



          On 5th April 2014.
I do feel something weird, I now fully clear, and it seem like they are not kidding me, I do in hospital LOL. I blur ask them what was the date today they said 5th April 2014. LOL that time I do laugh out loud == Impossible I in hospital for so long haha. So I take my cellphone message my friends to make sure, I know they are kidding me haha. Unfortunately, they gave me so big reaction, I do in hospital! On that time I start believe what situation am I right now ==

 

After that, everyday got needle on my hand, take blood, every hours my hand got pump, boring and many more, but at least the food not so bad I love it specially chicken =3=

 

At first, I don't understand why I will in hospital, doctor also wondering why I will become like that, my bro told maybe because of the medication not suitable for me, my heart pump so fast, pump until my brain blur already. My family told me I do so many silly things that time == and I don't want to write, really SILLY!

 

I feel guilty == because I make everyone worry, waste everyone time, gave everyone burden, everyone said want to met me at hospital but I tried to reject o.o I scare I gave them troubles, ohh I do gave them troubles already, but at last they still came. I felt so touched, almost cried.

 

Since I born I kept though everyone was treating me like shit. Never take me seriously, didn't care about me, fake like hell, but after this I do believe, never doubtful, never feel so unsecure. Sorry my tears dropping, hearts so touched, doctor got say not to too emotion == later getting worst. Huuu I don't want getting worst so now I am going to end, sorry @@ my English not good, a lot of grammar mistake so don't laugh me TT

 

I felt I back from death, just reborn. Lucky my mind choose not to die. == I do mean what I said! Really touched I do cried when I write this.

 

End TT

o(︶︿︶)o

/.\ lol

I realized something now.

There is something wrong with me,

I can't play SDO with my friends,

I can't play nicely if I was playing with my friends.

I will keep miss nor bad,

I can't shine if I am playing with my friends,

I don't know why o.o lol.

Today I was playing with my friend,

guess what ==

I can't concentrate!

Ahhh! Why!

Every time playing with them,

I will get fluster,

my heart will beat fast,

when it beat fast my hands shake,

== I will miss if my hands shake!

Shit ah.

How I am going to win if I join the competition.

 When I was alone,

training myself,

I didn't feel so nervous.

I did pretty good =,=

I shine brightly!

== I always wish,

I will never get nervous playing with my friends,

but at last still the same.

Always lose if I am playing with my friends.

Ah (╯﹏╰)

End...

Everything start over

╮(╯_╰)╭ Haiz

Everything start over...

I joined SDO today,

I want to let go everything.

Every things that remind me,

how pro am I last time,

how well-known am I last time,

how pretty am I last time,

how great am I last time,

how sweet am I last time,

how rich am I last time...

These were all past tense...

It hard to let go,

but everyone had to move on...

I just can't stop thinking last time I how how how...

I just can't let go,

so today I decided to start everything over,

I deleted all of my friends list,

start from zero...

I played few round songs today,

fighting with pro's,

pretty awesome because my skill still have...

Even though is a bit of weak,

but I just can't forget SDO...

SDO this game,

is my first online game...

My best friend told me this game is awesome,

so since that time...

I become smarter,

I know the reality,

I know much thing now...

If she didn't told me about this game,

now maybe I am just a dumb ass,

still a 井底之蛙...

I guess I do like say thanks to you...

I stop SDO for so long last time,

because of exam,

homework,

crazy teacher...

SDO and I getting far apart,

but now I still back to that game,

because some sort things...

My friends and I did a promise last time,

we all having a wishes,

build a guild in that game,

control the guild just like other guild,

become famous in SDO,

being TOP 1 in SDO,

but sooner everyone going to quit SDO,

feel kinda sad.

At first one people say

" I want to quit this guild,

because there is impossible to become famous!

And I am joining other guild that more famous that this "

Then second people say

" I also want to quit because other guild is inviting me

by the way I can feel this guild not going to be famous... "

Then just left two person to control the guild,

but when going to PMR

We two had no other choice so we had to left SDO,

but NOW!

I am trying to make things back!

I do take something I like very seriously,

I won't forget everything I had promise...

This is why I want back to SDO,

to fulfill our PLAN!

I just hope this do happen...

End... (╯3╰)

Idea zzz

I had no idea right now =m=

=m= Hate ahh!...

讨厌啊!

Right now...

I am confuse...

I don't know what I am thinking about...

I don't know whether I do fall in love...

I don't know whether I do like the way he is...

Or I just like the part of him in my imagination...

I think about he was romantic...

I guess maybe these are the answer...

Maybe I just like him as a friend...

Not a lover type...

也许我只是一厢情愿...

I don't want make a fool of myself...

I don't want to be disappointed...

I don't want to feel sad...

I do got feeling maybe he no like me :3

I am sure!

So I don't want to think too much...

== But my damn brain can't stop!

It keep thinking zzz!

Shit ahhh!

I want ask him correctly but I can't...

I nervous o.o!!!

And I

Feel so stupid...

Suddenly ask people " Hey you, do you love me? " ==

Stupid right o.o?

I don't want to be call 自恋...

I know I am not a pretty girl!

So not need you to say...

When I discuss this to my friend...

She say must give myself a chance to be love...

But I am not sure we both suitable or not ==

zzz That guy is different...

I don't know what da heck he thinking about...

By the way ==

Last time I treat him very bad...

I say before " Even though there is no one else I also won't marry him "

@@ One more thing...

I am not a 自恋!

So I write this is just to renew my blog!

Don't think too much!

HE AND I WON'T BE TOGETHER BECAUSE HE NOT LIKE ME!

I am sure for that =3=

End...