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Monday 30 December 2013

Ahh... :P



So long I didn't renew my blog...
Today at least I got write some... ^^
No idea to write :3
Got idea also I didn't write because...
I doesn't know how to write...
My English and my Chinese are bad =m=
Wish my English and my Chinese will be improve more
By writing blog and reading people's blog ^^
By the way...
This few days...
I dunno what had happen to me...
Just keep asking questions...
Think a lot of my future...
Even when I open computer...
I kinda don't like to open Facebook...
Dunno why...
Maybe I just don't want to disturb my friends o.o?
Dunno why I just got this feeling...
Just scare like I had disturbed them...
Keep thinking am I a burden for you all...
I don't want to be a burden...
I don't want to be hate by other people...
I want to stay with you all forever...
=3= Keep ask questions again...
Why...!!! Why...!!!
This few days so weird...!!!
Am I really really grow up...?
But I don't want to grow up!!!
I just want to be small time...!!!
I don't want to be old...!!!
Just can't accept reality...
I really really wish time froze now...
Never flies anymore...

End...

Should I be happy or...?


Today...
I think I had grown up...
I go HUKM clinic to test blood by my own...
My own~~~! Oh yeah...
When I was small...
Every time I need my parents to help me up...
But today...
I just sit alone at the waiting place...
Waiting my number to be call...
Alone...
First time for me... :3
But when my number been call =3=
She say my paper haven cop and haven pay yet...
That time I was " WHAT?!?!?!? =3=!!! "
So I need to wait again ==
The counter need 8.00a.m. then open /.\
So stupid am I...
Come so early...
Get first number...
But also need wait ==
But at last...
It open...
And it cost RM5...
=3= Lucky I bring some money...
If not I DOME...
After finish...
I walk back home alone...
Last time I always call my parents to fetch me...
But today they all busy...
So I need to walk lah~
On the way back...
I passed by 7-11...
I can't believe I refuse to buy mol point...
As usual...
When I passed by 7-11...
I sure used up all my money to buy mol point...
But today was different...
I didn't buy it o.o...
I force myself not to buy it...
Kinda think am I already changed?
Am I grown up?
Should I be happy or?
Would I change more next time?
After changed?
Nice?
I dunno...

End...

Saturday 21 December 2013

我最担心的事...


啊...
现在...
我最担心的事...
我最怕的事...
就是妳...
19 - 12 - 13 那时候...
我们一起跟妳的男朋友一起出去玩...
我发现了一件事...
我看得出妳这次很认真地去爱一个人...
晚上时妳还说妳有主动地去亲他...
那时...
我真的很担心...
好担心...
我很担心那个 damn Andrew 不是真心的...
...
我们玩 PIU 时...
他的表情好像不是很喜欢...
好像不是很喜欢去那种地方...
我不知道啦...
=3=...
我也不知道他是否喜欢那种很主动的女生...
啊...
我也许想多了...
也许这些只是个我的想象...
我也不知道...
我真的不知道...
我只是害怕...
......
妳受到伤害...
也许我有点自私的想法...
可能是想和妳永远在一起...
我不知道...
我不知道到底我在担心什么...
是怕你受到伤害...
还是很自私的我害怕失去妳...
还是我羡慕妳拥有个男朋友...
而我没有...
可是...
有了男朋友真的很好吗?...
想了很久...
我觉得不要再想太多啦...

End...

Thursday 19 December 2013

啊...


啊...
这几年来... 我为了她...
我做了很多东西...
做了我从来没去做也有可能我不知道的事...
为了要跟了解她...
我开了 blog...
我下载了 skype...
我 qiong sdo 99...
我甚至还开了 twitter...
我不知道妳在我的心中为啥那么重要...
我心中就这么的关心妳关注妳...
我认识这么多的朋友...
就是没有一个可以为她而着迷... 为她而疯狂...
想下一下...
如果有一天妳即将要离开我的身边...
可能永远都不会再见面...
我不知道会如何是好...
那时候...
应该会失去我的目的地...
会社会中 sesat =3=...
其实我也不相信 " Best Friend Forever " 这个东东...
这个想法...
是在我小学的时候...
大部分的人都是看不起我的人...
等到要写的自我介绍是...
他们全部都写 ” You Are My Best Friend... "
" Best Friend 就是你... "
这些东西都是骗人的...
可是到了中学他们一个个都不在我的学校了...
重新开始...
虽然大部分的人是马来人...
可是好比他们那些虚假的朋友好几百倍...
虽然我们同一个小学校...
可是我在中学才跟妳很熟...
我也想说声谢谢...
因为妳没有因为我是个丑女就不要我这个朋友...
谢谢你!!!

End... xDD