Inner thought #2

I need hug...

I need love...

I need comfort...

I need someone to lend me their shoulders for me to rest...

I need someone to lend me their hands when I really need it...

Sorry readers, I rarely act so childish >< but I kinda fed up the life for a moment...

I hate it so much that things don't go the way I wanted to...

I have tried hard to help as many people as I can...

I have tried to give all my attentions to everyone around me and give them comforts or advices if can...

But it ended up I hurt someone else in order to ease another person...

I mean is it wrong to help someone?

I know I am wrong for slipped up a little secret, I am sorry about that...

But I really have no bad intention...

All I wanted was to just clear up the misunderstandings...

It is very frustrating and hurtful when you heard your friend said 'I hate myself... Why everyone is ignoring me?'

The worst is you know something but you can't really tell them ( fucking frustrating )

Moreover, I hate seeing people backstabbing that person and that person is clueless on what is going on...

So I chose wisely on what to talk to ease them a bit but argh I still fucked up...

The only reason I do so much of troubles and try hard to listen/understand people is because I don't want them to feel lonely or abandoned...

I wish I could be the one who can ease them and led them to a brighter place...

I just don't want people to feel the feeling that I hate the most --- helpless, clueless

Arghh, maybe I should not be such nosy... 

I feel deeply sad because I might lost trust from that fellow or more worst I might lost her/him completely...

I tried to not think too much and want to be as positive as I can but sometime it is so hard for me to force myself to be positive...
But I have you, which is the only reason that keep me sane, I guess I might go crazy without you ( like right now D: )
Well, maybe I should just get a rest, thanks for reading and have a good night guys...

I will be fine the next day morning :)