Why?

Yo another post for today.

I wanted to write this for quite some time but I always forgot to write.

Is kinda funny to say because I bet you can see how childish and stingy am I...

It is about my primary school stuff again.

Recently, I was added to a Whatsapp group called '6M'2010聚会'.

Ha, how funny is it?

After bloody 7 years?

After what everyone did back then primary school time?

Why now?

I don't even know if you guys still remember me but all I know is you guys are fucked up.

From the deepest of my heart, I never once forget how perish my life was back then.

Although for you, it doesn't seem worst to you.

For me, everything is shit.

How I wish everyone of you all screwed up your life, I know I am fucked up as well.

But I can't stand to see everyone of you all live happily.

It been long time yet I cannot move on.

I hate everyone of you all.

I want to puke every time reminded of you all...

Every pain of you all get are my pleasure and happiness.

Every success of you all get are the one that killing me.

Psychotic? Yeah right.

Why now bother to add me in?

This might be the most fucked up post I ever write I guess...

This is how truly I feel about my ex-ex-classmates.

Whenever I get upset when speaking about my primary school.

There will be one people always say 'if you think everyone is weird or shit, is means that you are the one fucked up here, you are the odd one.'

Am I really the one that is the problem?

Sorry I really can't get over it, I want them to suffer.

Too bad that not gonna happen.

It is so funny when everyone move on but not me.

I don't understand...