There will be no perfect life for anybody.
There will be something that will fuck you up.
Something will never go according to your way.
I, a girl that brought a lot of burdens to the others especially my families.
I truly wish I am born perfect with no flaw.
I wish I was born without tooth problem.
I wish I was born without a disease that lasts until the end of my life.
I wish my body is strong without having difficulty in doing any strenuous exercises.
Maybe sometime I wish I was not born in the first place...
Because I am just a heavyweight that is holding people back.
How many money was spent on me for this ~20 years of my life?
And now more problems arising and more weight I am going to put on them.
Why will I need to bear this burden of guilt?
What is the meaning of me keep on living in this world?
Why will they have to suffer because of me?
I really don't understand...
I wish to be strong.
But every time I tried to beat something.
Another stuffs coming in.
How many challenges left for me to overcome?
The thing is, can I manage to survive all through that?
Can I overcome my inner voice?
