The break

Is this the end of us...?
All because of me... 

I wanted to cry out loud...
I wanted to have someone to hug me and say it is gonna be alright...
But fuck I can't because I am at school and hostel.
I can't go back nor I have time for crying...

Is it all my fault?

Is it all my fault that I caused pain to other people?

If I didn't cry and act selfishly to force them together at that moment, would they have they be much happier?

If I were to let them divorce in the first place, would they have their own life now with another loves one?

What makes me then?

Where will I be by now if that really happen?

I am sad...

I am depressed...

I could've done something to make things right.

I should've let them divorce in the first place.

I should've traded my comforts with their happiness.

I shouldn't...

Why am in this kind of situation...

Why...?

Maybe I shouldn't have been born in the first place...

Maybe I am just a mistake...

The mistake that should've never made in the first place...