These few days, ohh not these few days. It had been passed for two week already. I felt I am still having a long dream that hard to be interrupt, can be called too deep. I don't know where, what, how or anything to start my story. It seem so blur to remind it last few days, but I want to write down so that I never forget this most crazy dream.
On 25th March 2014.
Yeah, it is holiday, and on this day I got an appointment from hospital, as usual. ( I got thyroid so I got appointment lak :3 ) I having that for three years already so my doctor recommend me to try out this radiation medication and it on this day. I felt happy because maybe I might fully cure after that at all, no need medication, appointment, burden o.o and so on lak. I remember I went there so early, but because I am too excited == I had to wait 1 hour, but then finally came xDD I went inside the room and had the radiation medication. Doctor called me to go back home quickly and.......... ( I can't remember here >< )On 1th April 2014.
Huuu. What the heck. These was what I said on that day. I saw so many people, patients, doctors, so many sound, so blur, hand pain, headache, someone calling my name... I don't know what had happen, in my mind got a lot of question marks, but I can't speak, after all I blur again.......... ( =m= It on April fool day! Not funny ok! )
On 3th April 2014.
I woke up. I still felt the headache and everything. I saw my parents they look so worry o.o? Question marks again but this time I can speak finally, I ask what happen? They replied said that I at ICU. LOL that time I though what, I though they are kidding me, so I continue sleep, I felt so sleepy zzz.
On 5th April 2014.
I do feel something weird, I now fully clear, and it seem like they are not kidding me, I do in hospital LOL. I blur ask them what was the date today they said 5th April 2014. LOL that time I do laugh out loud == Impossible I in hospital for so long haha. So I take my cellphone message my friends to make sure, I know they are kidding me haha. Unfortunately, they gave me so big reaction, I do in hospital! On that time I start believe what situation am I right now ==
After that, everyday got needle on my hand, take blood, every hours my hand got pump, boring and many more, but at least the food not so bad I love it specially chicken =3=
At first, I don't understand why I will in hospital, doctor also wondering why I will become like that, my bro told maybe because of the medication not suitable for me, my heart pump so fast, pump until my brain blur already. My family told me I do so many silly things that time == and I don't want to write, really SILLY!
I feel guilty == because I make everyone worry, waste everyone time, gave everyone burden, everyone said want to met me at hospital but I tried to reject o.o I scare I gave them troubles, ohh I do gave them troubles already, but at last they still came. I felt so touched, almost cried.
Since I born I kept though everyone was treating me like shit. Never take me seriously, didn't care about me, fake like hell, but after this I do believe, never doubtful, never feel so unsecure. Sorry my tears dropping, hearts so touched, doctor got say not to too emotion == later getting worst. Huuu I don't want getting worst so now I am going to end, sorry @@ my English not good, a lot of grammar mistake so don't laugh me TT
I felt I back from death, just reborn. Lucky my mind choose not to die. == I do mean what I said! Really touched I do cried when I write this.
End TT
